Hey friends! I know it's been a while. A looooong while, but I'm back! It's been 2 kids and 1 new state later. I think it's been about 4 years since I posted, I believe.
I think it's fitting that another bump in the road brings me back here.
Thursday last I came into work after having a day off prior (Liam wasn't feeling well, so I took the day off). He felt better and I came in dressed up a little better than normal because I was leaving early for "Parent Appreciation Day" at Liam and Lenore's daycare --
Side note: those of you who still read this - I now have 2 kids: a boy (Liam) who will be 3 soon and a girl (Lenore) who will be 1 on almost the exact same day Liam turns 3.
-- anywho, I was just getting into the rhythm of the workday when our boss got notice that the Vice President of our company and someone from Human Resources were going to be at our office in an hour. Mind you, the corporate office is in Minnesota, so this isn't like "someone is coming in from downtown Pittsburgh." We knew instantly that it was news, and when someone comes in from HR, seldom is it good news. So we logged out of our tasks (per bosses order) and waited. I had a knot it my stomach and lump in my throat.
They arrived and immediately took my boss into the break room-another bad sign. When they came out they told us what we already figured. Someone was losing there job. Actually - they told us we ALL were losing our jobs at the end of the year because the client we served (we are a satellite office for a larger mail order pharmacy company) didn't renew their contract with us and were in fact, given incentive to move the contract at the end of 2015 and not the end of 2016 (per usual procedure).
Needless to say I didn't handle this news well. I've never been laid off. My work experience is like my relationships in that I've always been the one to move on before being let go (or the contracts just ended). It's that whole control issue I have. Sean didn't have particularly flattering things to say about it either, but it is what it is. The ones in control were giving us our written notices.
The positives: we were scheduled to have our monthly "lunch on the company" that all locations did. So my boss (and the rest of us, really) suggested we go to the most expensive place nearby. In all truth though - the VP did say to make sure we really enjoyed our lunch today. He also gave us the rest of the day off with pay. So, we got a lot of great food, had a long lunch trying to let it sink in and vent a little. The other good thing is I have 4 months to seek employment, so at least there's time.
It's been a little touch and go with me about this. I'm just scared I won't find a job. More scared than when Sean was laid off in January 2013. This time we have *2* kids and a house. Perspective reminds me that that particular situation brought us here, and for the most part (aside from subtle anxiety brought on by learning my way around, meeting new people, staying on top of my health issues in a new environment and the occasional-but-typical family drama) things are going well here. I'm just struggling right now (probably because it is so fresh) with perspective here. I'll get there. I have to know there's a solution because we dealt with it before. One way or another.
Change is the only constant, but man it's nice to have a solid routine. We'll get back there soon enough.